oh Billie I share your grief. You gave your all to Blue and were rewarded in the end for your constant love and big heart. You can smile knowing that Blue trusted and loved you and she is flying free and in no pain.
Thanks Liz, it must have helped coz I'm feeling a bit better today.
I couldn't afford a permanent memorial on the site, but will try and get up at 3am next tuesday to attend the candlelighting service.
You all know what its like, you just feel like you need to DO something. I can do the candle service another time here at a more sensible time and have the candle in the garden where she's burried. But the online thing next week will feel like her funeral service if that doesn't sound to crazy.
It's that helpless feeling that you wish there could be more to do for them and the pain in your heart when you call their name coz you forgot for a moment they wern't there.
Thank you for all your lovely messages of support you are all wonderful on here. I must get some pictures uploaded of the rest of the mad kids.